Searching

“Nobody CHOOSES dysfunction, conflict, pain. Nobody CHOOSES insanity. They happen because there is not enough presence in you to dissolve the past, not enough light to dispel the darkness… the conditioned mind is running your life.”

The Power of Now – Eckhart Tolle

I’m heading to the library to check out this book. Then I’m going to the bookstore to have a look at A New Earth: Awakening to Your Life’s Purpose by the same author.

A bit later

I went to the library and the bookstore and found the books. I read a chapter from A New Earth. If Eckhart Tolle is correct, I have been overthinking my purpose, and that led to my discontent. According to him, one’s primary purpose is to awaken. Anything we are doing in this world is external and secondary. As to one’s external purpose, it is whatever one is doing in the moment. If I am writing this blog entry, then my purpose is to write the blog entry. If I am driving my car, then that is my purpose. External purposes are temporary rather than static. I will be reading The Power of Now in the next few days. Right now I need to shift my focus and purpose to a couple of commitments I made.

FYI: Eckhart Tolle’s site

Life Purpose

That article about being in two places at once interested me, but it didn’t make sense to me to be somewhere else unless I could enjoy being here where I’m at. Five years ago if you had asked me what my purpose was, I would have told you that it was to have another child. That dream has fallen apart and most likely won’t happen. To date, I haven’t identified anything new as being my purpose. And so the hunt is on: to find a purpose for living. I did a Google search on “life purpose”. One of the sponsored links informed me that I could find it on ebay. Indeed. Well, I did find the book “The Purpose Driven Life” there. Maybe that’s a clue worth looking up at the library. But I kept checking the links and found this one: How to Know What Your True Purpose in Life Is. I couldn’t help but notice the references to right angles in this article, too. That got my attention, seeing as I had read earlier in the day how right angles can help us be in two places at once. But like I said, there’s no point in being in two places at once if I’m not feeling good where I’m at. Ripples. Radiance. The new ID — and likely a new perspective (but it isn’t entirely new) — came to me so quickly and automatically. Now to make it fit better. There’s no point in being radiant if what I’m radiating isn’t positive, so that’s something to work on, too. I don’t want to do it by being somewhere else or with anyone else. I want to do it where I’m at and who I’m with. If the second article is correct, purpose is an effect of working toward a goal. There must be motion. Radiance resulting from precession requires motion. So I must find a direction and move!